A good way to work out ideas is to be consistent in my sketchbook. This is a place that I can freely make mistakes and get thoughts out on to paper. Not all drawings in my sketchbook make it as a final piece but construction is important to me and my process. I won’t always draw them out completely because the majority of the time the left is the same as the right with little variations. Drawing out one side gives me enough to make judgement also giving me an understanding of how I should work. The sketchbook is also a good place to practice. I have a sketchbook in a bookbag for going places and a stationary one for home.
When I find myself stuck I return back to the basics of drawing. This usually helps me work through problems and build new ideas. Working this way makes me focus on areas I need improvement as problems are always there. But, by creating something objective with realism in mind can be easier to compare and fix. Still life is perfect second to figure drawing. I think about all the steps I take to achieve a likeness of the still life and remember the work necessary to reach my goal and to learn from my mistakes. I draw and paint at the best of my ability, either its an exercise or finished piece. I suppose the other goal is to complete the work until I think its finished so I get use to it. And lastly, doing these drawings hopefully helps me get better and quicker at making decisions while building stamina.
I think the best way for me to enter any drawing is with a malleable plan. The drawing looks and feels different as an outline and changes to something with a pulse when those lines are filled in. Charcoal has been my primary medium as of lately because it gives me the opportunity to loosen up, something I don’t really get when doing a graphite drawing. The decapitated theme continues until I feel the body deserves a head. List of materials: generals charcoal pencil 6B, Nitram charcoal stick soft, primed watercolor paper, mineral spirits and an old brush. Here are process shots…if you have any questions, please ask
It is easy to get caught in the constant rotation of dark thoughts and even easier to allow them to continue. These dark thoughts usually take me to a place in my subconscious where distance is confusing and light is mostly absent. Instead of a bright white sun burning and casting light on everything it touches, there is a black sun casting darkness on everything is brushes against. This black sun shows me beauty in the dark places and brings forward things I would otherwise like to forget or ignore. I don’t know where the black sun came from but I know that it just is and always was. Below is “The Vast”, start to finish.
This is a comprehensive of my “Thoughts” drawing. The idea is that there is a dark cloud of thoughts that interfere with the many worlds created in the brain. Not all the thoughts are on the surface, as they dwell in the worlds that are within other worlds and can stay dormant until provoked. It is uncertain why or how. Even when the roots in these worlds are uncovered, they can lead to nothing but emptiness. Like the tree, there are branches that symbolize the connections to something much larger. Once one connection is gone, another appears. This is a small battle with O.C.D (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
The drawing starts with basic geometric shapes and the further you go, the more complex these shapes become.
Here are a few drawings that I did while at my residency in Gettysburg. They served the purpose of getting ideas out quickly. I spent maybe a day on each and did not pay much attention to form and value. I hope to complete more and create paintings out of my favorites. I am building steps, from preliminary sketches to paintings.
Gettysburg National Military Park was kind enough to grant me a residency for a month at the Klingel House, here in the park. The Klingel House is a farm that is located in Gettysburg National Military Park and was here during the Civil War. I am Humbled to be here and am making the most of this opportunity.
While deployed in Baghdad, Iraq, with the 1st Cavalry Division of the United States Army, discovering dead bodies was normal. I've seen them young and old, pieces and parts, halves and with holes, burned and exploded. Amongst the many bodies, a headless corpse is reluctantly leaving my memories. The body was blocking a small roadway and a trail of blood led to the head about 50 meters down. I am acknowledging the significance of the memory. In order to relax the memory I must entertain it. It is a process.
The land of Oregon. Photos of Oregon
In order to loosen up and to be less restricted in my work, I decided to create work, without any preconceived ideas of what the images are going to be. The only guidelines I set for myself were to start from shapes for composition and fill them in or void them. I lasted 22 days and was able to go the whole time without any reference out side of my own knowledge and the world inside of me. This was my sub conscience and my way of sublimating.